Can I just say I am already laughing about this blog and I am only on the first sentence. I have been having way too many daymares lately. What is a daymare?, you ask. Let me define it for you. Daymare: a vision had while awake that is intense in nature during the normal course of your day and resembles some sort of dream you would have had after eating some late night pizza. I know that these daymares have been brought about by my own inability to just relax and not dwell on things. I am laughing and shaking my head at myself right now. It is good to be able to laugh at oneself.
I will share one with you.
I have been obsessing about getting this painting of a prophetic word done. I have attacked the problem from many angles to no avail. I was sitting at work completely frustrated. While working, I had this daymare.
I am talking to Scott Squires and he is telling me that I am not going to be able to help lead Revolution Church anymore because I am in complete rebellion about the painting. I yell at him several times and tell him that I don't care what he says I am not painting it. I say that I have restarted the painting 12 times and I am not doing it anymore. He says, you are going to take me to your studio right now, I want to see these paintings.(apparently I have a studio I know nothing about) So, I take him to the studio, we are standing in the middle of the room. Now mind you I have not only painted the painting 12 different times I have also covered every wall with trees. He just looks at me and says, There is nothing wrong with any one of these paintings.
Crazy isn't it!
Anyway, the other one is too sad to share. Keep looking on the blog though there may be future daymare postings.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Living with Purpose
What a fantastic journey our lives would be if we lived like Jesus was standing in our presence. I have been pondering on this for a while. Tennyson senior came and spoke at Rev Church a month or so ago and he put a chair right in the middle of the gazeebo like Jesus was sitting in the seat. And over the past couple of weeks Scott has made references like that as well.
The more I thought about it the more I realized that I always think about Jesus being right there with me in the hard times. You know, the hard seasons when you feel like no matter how much you pray you can't hear His voice. No matter how much you read His word its like reading stereo instructions. I know some of you are laughing right now. Only because you know what I mean, we all have been in those seasons.
There is amazing power in realizing that He is there in every moment. Every moment. Not just when we need Him or call out to Him, every moment. That realisation can cause your life to be a fantastic journey. It gives Him the opportunity to move in you, to use you as a tool in your everyday life. It causes you to be a light in a dark place.
The more I thought about it the more I became aware of the things I was saying at work. The jokes that you know you should not laugh at but sometimes do and you try to make yourself feel better by saying that it was inappropriate. How effective is your light shinning if you are laughing right along with everyone else? I say this because God has been talking to me about it, even now as I sit here writing. Would you make that joke or that sarcastic comment if you lived like He was standing right beside you? Ouch. That one hurt me.
I pray for people all the time, my friends, family, co-workers, students and it dawned on me....what if I am part of the answer? What if I am missing an opportunity because I am not recognizing that God is right next to me. Now, don't get me wrong I am not acting crazy or being inappropriate with these people. But what if I just made myself more aware? Thought a little more before I spoke. And spoke with confidence when God asked me to.
I know that God is calling me to a higher standard in these days.
I want my life to be a fantastic journey.
The more I thought about it the more I realized that I always think about Jesus being right there with me in the hard times. You know, the hard seasons when you feel like no matter how much you pray you can't hear His voice. No matter how much you read His word its like reading stereo instructions. I know some of you are laughing right now. Only because you know what I mean, we all have been in those seasons.
There is amazing power in realizing that He is there in every moment. Every moment. Not just when we need Him or call out to Him, every moment. That realisation can cause your life to be a fantastic journey. It gives Him the opportunity to move in you, to use you as a tool in your everyday life. It causes you to be a light in a dark place.
The more I thought about it the more I became aware of the things I was saying at work. The jokes that you know you should not laugh at but sometimes do and you try to make yourself feel better by saying that it was inappropriate. How effective is your light shinning if you are laughing right along with everyone else? I say this because God has been talking to me about it, even now as I sit here writing. Would you make that joke or that sarcastic comment if you lived like He was standing right beside you? Ouch. That one hurt me.
I pray for people all the time, my friends, family, co-workers, students and it dawned on me....what if I am part of the answer? What if I am missing an opportunity because I am not recognizing that God is right next to me. Now, don't get me wrong I am not acting crazy or being inappropriate with these people. But what if I just made myself more aware? Thought a little more before I spoke. And spoke with confidence when God asked me to.
I know that God is calling me to a higher standard in these days.
I want my life to be a fantastic journey.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
On a journey for Joy
I love it when I am in the midst of a trying day and God sends me people who are dear to me to give me what I need most, His word. My dear friend Andrea called me a couple days ago at the end of what seemed to be yet another trying day in this long difficult season I seem to be in. She gave me this scripture that I want to share with everyone. I am still chewing on it myself. It is out of the message bible, Colossians 1:9-12 "We pray that you'll have the strength to stick it out over the long haul-not the grim strength of gritting your teeth but the glory-strength God gives. It is a strength that endures the unendurable and spills over into joy, thanking the Father who makes us strong enough to take part in everything bright and beautiful that he has for us."
I was having a conversation with another dear person in my life, Rana, and she said that it did not seem that I had Joy in what I had been doing over the past few months. I am not sure how I got to that place. Then Andrea told me she is doing a study on Joy. Now I am on a journey myself. I was reading another scripture in Ezra about Joy, and it was talking about these people weeping loudly for Joy. Since then this question has been going thru my mind: When is the last time you wept loudly for Joy?
I was having a conversation with another dear person in my life, Rana, and she said that it did not seem that I had Joy in what I had been doing over the past few months. I am not sure how I got to that place. Then Andrea told me she is doing a study on Joy. Now I am on a journey myself. I was reading another scripture in Ezra about Joy, and it was talking about these people weeping loudly for Joy. Since then this question has been going thru my mind: When is the last time you wept loudly for Joy?
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